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[Dec. 21st, 2009|01:29 am] |
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Timothy Tan.
I'm speechless about this person and even though no one knew about what exactly happened except this boy and myself, i have had my fair share of actions and really, if we could put those horrible memories away yeah we could be as happy as before. Things are getting better i suppose. And i hope nothing else will happen again and no one will ruin this again because i've had enough. If anyone dares to try, watch out because i don't think i'm gonna be that stupid to get bullied by losers who doesn't have a life and goes around ruining people's r/s. Everyone needs respect and so do i.
Okay yes goodnight. |
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[Dec. 21st, 2009|12:38 am] |
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WOAH LIFE IS SO BORING I HAVE SCHOOL IN A FEW HOUR'S TIMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE AND I AM GOING TO BE DOING NOTHINGZ AGAIN. HAHA I CANT WAIT TO SEE FATS ON WEDNESDAY AND I'M STILL CONTEMPLATING IF I SHOULD GO FOR TRAINING TOMORROW AND UGH I THINK I SHOULD CAUSE THE FORM FOR WSC CAMP IS STILL WITH ME. SIGH OMG I AM SO EXHAUSTED FROM COACHING I AM GOING TO KO NOW GOODNIGHT WORLD! (L) |
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[Nov. 29th, 2009|02:21 am] |
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Ugh i wanted to change the layout of my livejournal but i was too lazy + i'm so afraid i'll screw things up HAHAHA. Okay better not. Today was great, i was with Jolene Tan the entire day then i met Mich for dinner @ Tamp 1. Woah great dinner i had Thai Express AGAIN. Omg my chingching ($) all gone down the toilet pipe uh, what a waste. The company was great though! :)
I've realised that my temper has gone from bad to worst. I can be so rude to anyone on earth now, can someone slap me please? I can get annoyed at someone so easily and okay i just cannot control my temper. Is it because ___ is arriving? Okay maybe. Hopefully i can get out of this bad temper zone asap.
I was thinking, why are humans so unsatisfied with their lives and why are humans always pursuing for more? Why can't people be satisfied with whatever they have, cherish them and not be greedy? Why can't humans be understanding and put themselves into the shoes of the people they were gonna hurt? Why of so many people, i have to be the one getting hurt. WHY. |
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[Nov. 25th, 2009|11:58 pm] |
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No coaching this week (Y)! Uncle's wedding on sunday evening and i haven't even gotten my shoes, sigh. Was @ town with Kly for dinner & yes Thai Express rockssss. Love the mango blend. Anyway i have no school for THREE BLOODY WEEKS. People are envious but hello i'll be bored ttm. Btw i'm damn annoyed with the stupid stalkers on fb. F off seriously. Okay i can't wait for BSC i can meet new people! :) Classical was fine, glad presentations are overrrrrrrrrrrr and arguements with a particular team MEMBER was omg exciting to the max ah, annoying much. Okay shit i have to go to bed now, shall update tomorrow or something. This post is damn random la. K night all :) |
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[Nov. 21st, 2009|03:07 am] |
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Okay i haven't been updating for ages, life's been good ever since i crawled out of the facts that i was facing. It was really too much for me to handle because it was the time for school to be reopened and yet i had to face so much crap i had to take mc even on the second day of school. Yeah mc queen, whatever. (It only started when i got into NYP by the way).
Shall start from the most important event of the year which i've missed out previously, the majorly missed IVP. I was totally feeling like i was in hell during those two days because number one, i havent been going back for training for at least a month before IVP. Was practically moodless because of the never ending quarrels i had with ___ so i appeared at IVP as a joke. Then number two was yeah on that day itself there were still some thoughts about ___, okay or rather they were hurtful thoughts about ___ till i teared on the spot. Arcade and dinner managed to cheer me up a little, thank you my lovely swim team. Although i didn't do well this year, i believe i can do better in the next IVP and hopefully hit my pb again.
Next up is school. School was always a bitch and will never stop being a bitch. But lessons have been going great so far, there was project management & customer service. Role play, presentation, blahblahblah. School is really not worth mentioning lol i shall stop. I'm currently in the midst of completing my report and i thought if i could destress a little and let it out on this stupid space of mine which i think no one would visit. But i guess it's time to let go of the past and move on, thus i've decided to update this space again. And there is no point abandoning MY livejournal just because i've lost someone right? All the memories are kept deep down in this journal but i will never ever refer back to the hurtful past so i'll just take it that the past 3 years have never existed and yes here i am still living my life.
I thought i could never move on, but i did. I could stop texting ___ for a day and not think of what ___ is doing right now. ___ might be regretting whatever that was done but i know there is no turning back so yes, it ended. Supposedly on a brighter note but after a month of straightening out, it doesn't matter because when someone could abandon the r/s or f/s in the first place, there is no point clinging on the hope that this someone would take the step back, apologise and make it up to me. At least after this 1 month, facts surfaced, i was brave enough to face it & i did not become a coward trying to push the blame to others.
Yeap i still feel like calling ___ & ___ names whenever the incident comes to my mind but nope, SELF CONTROL JO. Retribution is the word. I shall just put this tragedy behind and laugh at it when i grow up. Optimistic isn't it, or rather self consolation. It doesn't matter anyway. If i could stop texting ___ for a day, i can do it for life.
Here're some of the pictures from IVP, the day i was out with Yiqing, Gary's 21st Birthday Party, Fel's 18th & Wii @ Phy's place :)
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